Ask and it shall be given to you. The bible says it, specifically in Matthew 7:7. And yet many of my prayers are not granted. I'm sure you can relate.
Last year, I prayed for a regular office job with all the perks of having sick leaves, health card benefits and a normal weekday schedule. I was already willing to leave the life of being on TV, doing commercials and hosting. I wanted a normal job commensurate to my skills and experience that was no longer per-project-basis, no erratic schedule, no disappointing surprises. I wanted something predictable and consistent. I wanted to save.
I applied for an office job that was offered to me years ago, but after the interview, I wasn't called back.
Instead, I was blessed with more commercials, more hosting gigs and voice projects.
As I write this entry, my financial situation isn't comfortable because four talent fees from different projects haven't been released, and for some of them, it's already been months.
I don't know what God has planned for me. But the reflection Fr. Rudy Horst wrote on Sabbath (a study guide on daily scripture readings, published by Shepherd's Voice) gave me so much comfort. He said that when we pray, we ought to keep in mind two verses. The one I mentioned above which was to be followed by "not my will but Yours be done," from Matthew 26:39.
God knows what's best.
Today, I believe He is teaching me to level up my finance-related skills and behavior to prepare me for a generous future.
